i'm thankful for....

i'm thankful for my family. very, VERY thankful

after spending the holiday with SO's (significant other) family. I realized and learned some very important thing.

• (1) 40 ppl eating wayyy too much in a house w/3 bathrooms is NOT a good idea.
  i did some serious dancing while waiting my turn
• (2)there ARE indeed families weirder and more messed-up than mine
• (3) sleeping with the bf in his bed, in his house when his dad is staying there too, is still incredibly awkward. even at 25 years old. even though you both slept in long pajamas, on opposite sides of the bed, with absolutely no physical contact between your bodies, for fear of the bed squeaking.
• (4) alcohol makes it all better. esp when laughing at 50 yr olds who come home smashed at 11pm, the day before Turkey Day

frzn turkey bowling is ALWAYS a good idea

volume II

"about letting go and moving on, the thing is that to grieve something -
you actually have to admit that you've lost it.

and admitting that its over and gone
---or that you never really had him to begin with ---
is a tough pill to swallow.




but it goes down better with rum and coke...." :-)

men are emotional fuck-tards
i just got off the phone wiht my friend and the stories that he regaled me with just re-affirm my belief that the majority of women's emotional hang-ups are due to @$$holes like HIM!

all because he can't (or won't) get over this girl from like 6 years ago! [paging Dr. Phil]
dont get me wrong. i dont plan on not being friends because of this...
BUT i am so f-ing glad that we never dated. and wish I could forewarn any woman he meets!
the stories of dating 3-4 women at a time, while lying to all of them. and never ever telling anyone in a relationship "i love you" as well as refusing to define or label relationships all equalls up to a person who is emotionally and "relationship-ally" fucked up. and that messed-up-ness just gets dumped onto every person that he becomes romantically encountered with....

damn, this whole converstion just has me worked up in a dither.
and madder than a swarm of red wasps.

"i believe in love.... i believe in happiness - and i believe in you"

i just love this song by Don Williams... (especially now that there is that someone in my life with similar values and common traits.) This song epitomizes simple Southern beliefs and values. they may not always hold true but they're tradition. and around here - traditions stick like my momma says that grits stick to your ribs. :-)



"I don't believe in superstars,Organic food and foreign cars.I don't believe the price of gold;The certainty of growing old.That right is right and left is wrong,That north and south can't get along.That east is east and west is west.And being first is always best.

But I believe in love.I believe in babies.I believe in Mom and Dad.And I believe in you.

Well, I don't believe that heaven waits,For only those who congregate.I like to think of God as love:He's down below, He's up above.He's watching people everywhere.He knows who does and doesn't care.And I'm an ordinary man,Sometimes I wonder who I am.

But I believe in love.I believe in music.I believe in magic.And I believe in you.

I don't believe virginity,Is as common as it used to be. In working days and sleeping nights,That black is black and white is white. That Superman and Robin Hood,Are still alive in Hollywood.That gasoline's in short supply,The rising cost of getting by.

But I believe in love.I believe in old folks. I believe in children.I believe in you.And I believe in love.I believe in babies.I believe in Mom and Dad.And I believe in you"

paging Dr Freud

i need to learn to take my own advice...


in re-reading my own blog. i came across a quote - "never make someone your priority when you're only an option to them".
i cant believe i was questioning a possibly incredible future over someone who cant even return a call or msg. much less what's going on

you'd think i'd learn from lessons learned. of those who cant, or wont, commit. for those who i'm not a priority to.

in matters of the heart - do I keep making the same mistakes... or am I just always dating the same guy?